horror subgenres:
a protrusion from the skin, just slightly
a curling up beneath the skin
a swelling: soft, delicate, pink
slightly dazed at all times
keep trying to snap yourself out of it
the rotting milk that is the essence of abjection
haven't had milk in so long
you've been watching a lot of tv
taking a lot of edibles
sitting on a lot of benches
saying stuff you shouldn't say
new pants from santa cruz
to cast yourself off
fingernails into skin beneath the thigh
soft, with the right number of nerves
invitations to coffee
over and over
reading just a little bit at a time.
having to stop: waiting and waiting.